The Wandering Mind

Scandal, Eddie Money and Rick Springfield!

Posted in Depression,Music by wandren on 1 October 2007

At one place, on one night, I got to see Patty Smyth with Scandal, Eddie Money and Rick Springfield perform – for free!!

My daughter was the big winner of the night, who got a t-shirt signed by Eddie Money and his daughter, Jesse – and Jesse complimented my daughter’s shirt!!

As fun as the whole night was, it was Scandal’s songs that spoke to me… “I am the warrior. Victory is mine.” I need to reclaim that warrior spirit within and declare victory over the depression that has kept me from having the life I want.

The main effect of this depression seems to be that I know what I need to do, but I can’t do it, I know how I used to be, but I don’t know how to feel like that, and I can’t act like the person I am (and want to be) if I don’t feel like that person.

Ballet Under the Stars

Posted in Arts and Crafts,Depression by wandren on 27 September 2007

Attended a performance of the Arizona Ballet last night and had a great time!! Hardly any one was at the park, which was good for me because I don’t like being in crowded places, and because I won a package of schwag that included free tickets to the opening night of Giselle!!

The evening was cool, Cesar Chavez park was surprisingly pretty, and I was able to enjoy a nice evening with my sister. Driving home I felt like my old-self, the one that relentlessly pursued her goals and fearlessly conquered any obstacles.

I felt like I could do anything I wanted to, and nothing was out of reach. That was good medicine! The hard part now, is choosing a goal to focus on and remembering how I felt last night.